Got my results back - quite bad. Yeah, I can virtually hear the nags, not particularly from others. Stinky procrastination (overused and irritating word - understatement) strikes back. Procrastination had evolved from a problem to an excuse to wriggle out from everything. I try to remind myself constantly that the Os are more or less a year away. But apparently some tiny part of me has the mindset that it's not that near.

You know, just like waking up in the weekends or holidays. You want to wake up at say, 7. But some part of you knows that that's not gonna happen. Either you've tried that numerous times before or you think you need to sleep in to compensate for the lost hours in the week. But you force yourself to set the alarm at 7 or even have backup-alarms... Fast forward to the morning at 7 - the alarm rings, you're tired and don't feel like waking up, then you 'stop' the alarm. Not snooze. You end up waking at 11. You will feel as if you've wasted so much time and don't want to do anything else. That was my typical weekend/holiday.

Things need to change.
Things will change.